My Heart Aches

My heart aches and aches and aches,

At the exact spot you left your void at,

I try and try and try,

To keep it together,

Accept what it is,

Rather than ask again why.

Then everything else crumbles,

And it's so difficult not to cry,

When it brings back your memories,

And I had to ask why.

Why did you do what you did,

Did you have no other option babe?

Why was it so difficult to say,

All the things that once you easily said?

Why did you think you had the make that decision alone?

You weren't the only one in that thing alone.

Will this ever stop hurting me, aching me, breaking me,

In ways I don't know,

Even with the unending lessons,

I still have to learn.

My heart aches and aches and aches,

What to do,

You aren't here,

And maybe you never wanted to.