I Want To Abandon Myself

I want to abandon my short-circuited brain,

That's filled with potential and panic,

With all the nerve endings brunt,

As a result of everything that's been happening over the years.

I want to abandon this hopeful and hopeless heart,

That's filled with memories sweet and wholesome,

Even if I was responsible for all the delusional thinking,

At least I was feeling something,

Now everything is too numb, too bland, too repressed and too much.

I want to abandon this heart, mind and soul.