Despite Everything

I don't need someone to tell me,

I deserve good things,

Because I already know that,

But I want someone to tell me that,

I will indeed get all those good things,

Because on some days,

Despite everything,

I doubt that it'll ever happen.

I go back feeling like that helpless girl who was choking with tears 10 years ago,

Not knowing what the future held for her,

And I'm afraid that I am failing her,

Every single day,

Even after so many years of efforts,

I keep building myself,

And I keep failing her,

Despite everything,

I doubt if I'll ever make her proud.

I keep wondering about why can't I picture myself doing,

All the things that others are doing,

And I think I can't do it because I am supposed to do more,

Do different, do better than everyone else,

Despite everything,

I doubt of I'll ever be able to live that day,

When everything feels okay.

I don't need someone to tell me that I will,

Because I hope I do,

I just need someone to tell me I did it,

Because I don't know how will I ever do.

Despite everything.