Apologia

If my journal had a prompt today,

Which said, write down what you want to hear -

I would write this:

"Hey, I'm sorry. I was stupid."

For some reason,

I need an apology,

For something, everything and anything,

There have been too many stupid things happening,

And not one person acknowledging,

Or genuinely feeling apologetic for their actions.

Until then,

I'm apologising to myself,

For all those moments,

When I let things happen,

That makes this inner version of me,

Ask and demand for an apology.

Maybe if I forgive myself first,

It would be easier to forgive others,

With or without that apology I need.